End of the week I'm tired crabby pants

That's what I had on tonight.  I'm not sure what happened between 5:30 when I got off work and 6 when I finally made it home but somewhere in there the devil got in me and started yappin about how bad my day was when in fact it wasn't bad at all.  It was productive and moved pretty fast and I had a great shopping trip to Wal-Mart.  So after a good couple hours of getting angrier and stalking around my house throwing dinner together in a not so loving manner eating said dinner gaining a headache in the process my husband headed back to Waffle House to count the drawer down because managers are responsible for shift change on the weekends.  So, not only did I manage to be in a greatly bad mood when I got home but I ruined the only two hours of the evening I had with my husband!!  So after he left I was moping and was going to leave the dinner dishes in the kitchen however I had a pep talk with myself.  I unloaded the dishwasher cleaned up the kitchen and living room and prayed the whole time.  So now I have a better heart and attitude and I also have a clean living room and kitchen.  So next time maybe some prayer on the way home would be a better plan.  Ok I'm off to work on coupons. 

Blessings today and always,

The Topic of my blog changed in an instant

This morning I got up at 6, day TWO on my adventure to making my life better and setting an example for my baby.  I got my shower got dressed as to be fully awake this time when I did my devotions.  I go out to get my computer am walking back to the bedroom and instantly stop in my tracks.  Sitting on the kitchen counter next to my diaper bag and lunch ready to go to work and daycare is the most beautiful set of roses and a card.  The card reads "If you knew how often I think of you, you would feel like I'm hugging you" can I just say that I LOVE MY HUSBAND!!!

If that doesn't make a girls day start off right I don't know what will!!!  So just so the whole world knows I LOVE MY HUSBAND!!!!  Ok, need to go fix breakfast and get to work. 

Blessings to you now and always,

Play date with lil man Micah

It's early and I only have about 5 minutes before I have to start getting ready for work.  So I wanted to bolt this out real quick!  Read the encouraging word for this morning and it was about knowing that God is the hope for our future and He has great plans for us.  That's been a struggle for me this past year because of Adam's job situation and now as I prepare to stay at home with Abbie it's going to be tight but I know that God has great plans for our family!  You can read all about that here

 In other news...yesterday Abbie had her first play date, well at least the first one where both babies are active and they actually play with the toys on the floor and don't need their mommies to interact with them.  They were so cute playing with the toys and talking to each other.  We had to occasional "be gentle" "no Abbie don't pull at his hair" but all in all it went very well.  Before we know it they'll be up and running at the park playing tag together! 

They really are to cute!  Anyways I pray that you have an encouraging day and lean fully on our Lord remembering that He holds great plans for all His children.

Blessings today and always,

Driving straight past my head and deep into my soul

That's what happened this morning when I went to Proverbs 31 ministries website and read their encouraging word for the day, and you can find it here for your own reading I would GREATLY suggest reading it friends.  As Abbie played in the living room I decided to sit down at my kitchen table with my breakfast and read my morning devotions, with K-love playing in the background it seemed like the best time :)  I made it now further then the opening scripture before my brain started SCREAMING at me almost begging me to not move on with this devotion, screaming at me because it knew that what this woman had to say would change my heart and life forever, 2 minutes to read a devotion and I was leveled to a pile of sobs crying out to my God for forgiveness.  What was this scripture that so touched my heart? 

“Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food.” Romans 14:20a (NIV)   

I was destroying the work of my God and for what?!  A burger, some chocolate, a bag of chips?! I have all but begged God at times in my life to save me from this addiction. *Disclaimer* This is in no way to make my mother sound like a horrible mother or to make her feel bad in reading this, she is a wonderful mother and I love her more than words can describe.  I remember being in high school when my mother suffered from her first open heart by-pass surgery and thinking I can't do this!  I can't grow up and put my children through this and I vowed to lose weight and never get diabetes.  Now please keep in mind at that age I was well stupid!  How could I ever think that just because I lost weight I wouldn't get diabetes and have health problems?!  I know that somewhere down the line in the years to come I will worry my children with my health problems no matter how much weight I lose.  This being said, I can't make any of these things my goal.  I can't make it my goal to want to play with my kids without killing myself, looking smoking hot for my husband, or wanting to fit into a size 14 any of my goals, at least not my main goal.  I should want to lose weight for the soul purpose of serving and please my God!  I should want to strive and work hard to not destroy the beautiful work that He put into me!  So this is my prayer today that I will continue to pray and work and pray and work and make my heavenly father look down and me and go now THAT'S the woman that I created! 

Many blessings today and always!

Staying Strong through LOTS of prayer!

Well 1 our of 2 goals for the day isn't bad.  I wanted to wake up at 6 and do my morning devotions and blog about it however I'm sure you can tell that didn't happen.  I woke up at 7 and got ready for work HOWEVER I did manage to fix my lunch and get myself some breakfast before I left the house.  Today is day 2 on my adventure to a healthier lifestyle.  You can visit my profile to see how my adventure is going here

In just a little while Adam and I get to work out to Just Dance on the Wii which is always fun :) Then I plan to relax for the evening have my quiet time and well I have a couple things to do :) I'm not much a blogger this evening, I don't have much to say because well nothing happened today!  But I managed to keep my goal and stay under my calorie count and now I'm going to work out because that's what I need!  I'll leave you with the sweetest picture of my baby girl enjoying her dinner tonight.  She's getting so big!

Let the adventure begin!

As I got up this morning I fed Abbie her bottle I lay there looking at her and wondered "how can I love someone so much!" yet still manage to feel so empty at times.  I got out of bed brought her out to play and went to turn on netflix when my phone went off with a twitter update.  It was my friend @apb4jc or as I call her April :) it was a simple bible verse but because of her faithfulness in spending time with God every morning it reminded me "oh yeah Amy you were gonna read your bible this morning.  I hate even admitting this but most days I climb into bed at night starting to fall asleep and end up remembering that I didn't read my bible and in my head I say "oops, but it's just today we'll catch you tomorrow God" you know if God were my husband and treated me like that I would FLIP OUT!  See quality time is one of my top love languages.  I crave that time with my husband and daughter and not just the lets have a seat and watch CSI time with my family.  So WHY then don't I give God the same?  At this point in my life I'm making it a task each day to read my bible and speak with my Lord but I know one  day (hopefully sooner then later) that I'll crave that time with my Lord, that I'll wake up each morning eager to start my day in His word. 

This morning in my devotions that I read it talked about peeking around the corner waiting for everything to fall into place so that you'll be happy.  It's funny cause the writer opened up with this -

Growing up I had a plan for how I could make my life good.
Get a good education. A good job. A good husband. A few good kids. A good house. A good flowerbed out front. And a good mini-van parked in the driveway.
Then life would be… good.

 THAT WAS ME!!!!!!!!!! That was TOTALLY me.  I couldn't believe what I was reading, is this lady in my head or what?!  So I decided to venture on down and read the rest, even though I knew it was probably going to make me groan and go what am I doing!  My prayer today is that I will seek Him out and find my happiness in Him.  Below is the verse used in the devotion today and also a link to said devo, I pray it speaks to you as it did me.

“Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved.” Acts 4:12 (NIV)

/http://devotions.proverbs31.org/

The heart of the matter...

It's the year 2012, and every year for the past 10 years at LEAST (I don't remember when people really start making resolutions) I have "resolved" to lose weight, instead I gain it.  I've watched many amazing woman lose anywhere from 40 to 100 pounds or more but still I am yet to be inspired.  I was diagnosed with diabetes in 2006 do I lose weight?  No I gain it and take medications to keep my blood sugars low.  I got married in 2008 to the most amazing man who tries to encourage me in all areas of our life but still I continue to gain weight.  I have the most beautiful daughter whom I love with all that's in me and who I want to be able to play with at the park and run around our yard, I want to take her to school and her be proud of her mother not ashamed that her mother can't do some of the things other moms do just because I can't find the motivation to lose weight!  So why why WHY do I continue to put food ahead of the things that I know I love more?!  Why can't I find the motivation, why does food hold such a power over me?  I pray and I pray for God to give me the strength to control my eating and to give me the energy to work out and yet I still avoid it all.  I claim to give my life to God living fully for Him and yet in this area of my life (more apparent to me than others) is the one place where I just don't feel the need to show it.  Is it because I don't really love myself?  Do I not view myself worthy of a healthy life?  I know God loves me and wants me to be healthy and to be able to enjoy time with my family not just sitting in front of the TV watching movies and calling it "family time"...ok so whats this all mean?  I'm not sure, and I'm still not sure where to find my motivation.  I'm beautiful so that's not the issue...I should be healthy and happy.  So people I'm going to ask a favor...pray for me whenever you think of me...pray that God will give me the motivation, that He will keep me strong in not eating more than I need and pray that I will find the energy to work out on a regular basis.  And if you see me at any point don't be afraid to ask me how I'm doing please because I know accountability is key.   I'm going to close with a picture of me.  Lets see how this changes in the coming months.