Welcome to my journey

I finally did it, I opened the book and did the first devotion for the day in the book I bought well over a month ago.  Made to Crave Devotional by Lysa TerKeurst jumped out from the shelf like a hand trying to grab at me, I read the back although I had already heard of the book and made the choice to buy it and make my way through it knowing that what she has to say is probably going to rock my world and Lord willing change my life forever.  Lysa talks about and is very honest about her struggle with weight over the years of her life and wrote a book about the path she walked (I haven't read the book I had to make a choice between it and the devotional so I chose the later).  I've always known there was a deeper issue to the fact that I continue to eat and crave nasty foods (I mean good but NASTY foods) and a reason I continue to eat and eat and eat trying to fill some sort of hole that you can't ever see or fill.  I've known there was a deeper issue but wanted to ignore it thinking that one day I might be able to conquer this issue either on my own or with the help of God.  I tried over and over and when I failed I just figured I could always try again the next day (or next year ya know whatever works). 

Day One in this devotional, asking the Lord to unsettle me.  You know my brother Stephen has talked to me about this before, not in the same words but still.  I can see that this message has been taught to me over and over yet I seem to be ignoring it.  Unsettle me, I look at it kind of like turning the soil for a new garden.  God is the gardener and I am the soil, and if I want the "fruits" to grow from my soil them I'm going to have to allow God to turn the soil, to unsettle me and dig deep inside to find the faith and commitment to make my life fruitful.  Did that make sense to anyone else? 

Well this is my prayer today and will continue to be my prayer, because the Lord is never done working in our lives.  I pray that the Lord will unsettle me, never let me be complacent in my walk with my Lord Jesus.  Let me allow Him to do a great work in my life and in my family's life.  I pray that this is the start of an amazing journey.

Blessings today and always

Saten is attacking!

Today was another attempt at the stay at home mom bit...it didn't go all wrong but it was very VERY long.  Miss Abbie has a cold and in return its hurting her ears and that my friends makes for a super cranky child.  It would have been okay if she wanted to sit and snuggle with me but I would pick her up and sit her with me and she was so fidgety!  She just wouldn't sit still so I put her on the floor and she would cry and cry and cry and I would pick her up and she would cry and fidget...you can see the vicious cycle starting can't you.  Add to that trying to get chores done around the house and a dog that wanted to play and snuggle and you get a very long day.  I can't say that over the past few days it hasn't ocurred to me that I should have just stayed at work but I know this is God's calling for my life and saten can attack me all he wants but I'll just pray and pray and try harder.  Well friends I'm out for the night, I'm going to wait for my love to get home from work. 

Blessings today and always,

Day 2....Attempting a full day out

Well today is Saturday, once a month on a Saturday morning me and a few lady friends get together for what we call "Coffee Chronicles" it's basically just a time for us ladies to get together study scripture together, encourage one another and drink coffee and eat yummy breakfast food!!  Well today we didn't make it to the actual bible study but we had a wonderful time of encouraging each other in our marriages sharing struggles that we have with ourselves and praying for one another.  It amazes me that we always end up hanging out till the early afternoon!  So around one I headed over to Target (diaper run) and got me and Abbie some lunch!  Then we headed over to PetSmart to take a look because they are having a pet adoption there today and there were the CUTEST shepherd mixes there!  Now, Adam and I have been praying and talking about getting a puppy and I didn't get one today but we're going Monday on Adam's day off to look at them.  I'm praying they still have one left because they were SO sweet!  It's going on 5 o'clock and I'm about to start laundry...I will never understand my need to wait till the late afternoon to get started on laundry!  I need to work on that!  Anyhow, Abbie is waking up from her way to short a nap so I need to get her!  I'll leave you with a picture of this sweet dog! Tell me it's not the most adorable!

Blessings today and always,

Stay at home mom

Today started my first day as an official full time stay at home mom....I had visions of what it was going to be like.  I was going to be like Martha Stewart get my house SPARKLING clean and have my husband come home to a nice home cooked meal a full fridge from the visit to the store I did and a daughter in her high chair ready for dinner...ummm NOT.  That is not like ANYTHING that happened today!  My day started out with a cranky daughter waking up to early with dark circles under her eyes coughing at me because she caught my cold from last week.  I got her up got her changed gave her a cup of milk and we snuggled which was nice :)  I finished my grocery list printed that two recipes and my meal plan for the next two weeks out (sounds like its starting off ok doesn't it) well Abbie goes down for her nap and I relax for a little while.  I get ready to leave the house getting myself cleaned up, getting Abbie's bag together and just in time for her to wake up from her nap (perfect timing) I then left the house in plenty of time to get to my previous place of employment for the going away lunch they were throwing for me (which was nice) well on the way I stop to fill my car up (and here starts the down fall of my day) FIFTY SIX DOLLARS to fill up my car.  I remember the day when I said "I'm never getting a truck they cost fifty bucks to fill up (jokes on me right).  Well we get done with lunch and Abbie's doing alright mood wise so I decide to go to the store to get my groceries for the next couple weeks I get Abbie out of the car get in the store and.....my list is at home on my kitchen counter.  Way to go Amy!  So I load Abbie BACK in the car go home lay her down for her way to short afternoon nap and she wakes up in the WORST mood a mother can ask for, poor thing just doesn't feel good!  So we snuggled all evening because that husband that was suppose to come home still isn't home and it's 10:30.  So needless to say my first day as a stay at home mom wasn't perfect but I loved it still the same.  Instead of someone else holding my child because she doesn't feel good it was me.  I love my life and I love that my husband works so hard so that I can wipe these runny noses all the time!  Tomorrow is another day...maybe I'll get my house spotless tomorrow...maybe :-/

Blessings today and always,

End of February already!?

Bear with me folks!  It's almost the end of the week and in just 3 days I'll be an official full time stay at home mom!!  I'm so excited and blessed to be able to stay home with my child (and future children).  I'll return to blogging soon enough and will share all that's been going on in my life and family!  In the mean time if you need a great blog to read please head over to www.tolovehonorandvacuum.com and read her blog!  She's doing a 29 Days to Great Sex challenge and it is AMAZING!  Honor God in all areas of your marriage, remember he cares about you and loves you and wants you to have a happy healthy marriage...and that means having GREAT SEX :)

Blessings now and always,

Tuesday already?

Ok, so I don't feel very productive today.  I cleaned the kitchen and took care of my child all day but that wasn't very hard.  I just have NO energy!  I looked to see what kind of deals are going on at publix next week and started mentally getting my list and coupons together and now Adam and I are relaxing watching Friends.  I'm thankful that Abbie goes to bed at 7 because it gives me a few hours at night to do stuff I was to lazy to do during the day!  My mind has been very blank the past few days.  Maybe something will inspire me tomorrow and I'll have something to blog about, I mean I am watching 3 year old twin boys tomorrow so I'll probably have something exciting to share :) Until then I'll leave you with a sweet picture of our little one.

Blessings today and always,

I fell off the wagon...

and RAN MYSELF OVER WITH IT!  I must admit for the past 2 days I've gone on a bit of an eating binge, I did pretty good during the day at not eating a lot (although I didn't eat healthy I didn't over eat) but the past couple nights I over ate, last night being a deliberate "I had a horrible day and I need FOOD" night.  So getting up this morning I didn't feel great about myself I had the "I over ate" hang over which never feels good.  However, I got up did my devotions and am determined that it's a new day.  I went to a ladies bible study I'm involved in and had a great time of encouragement and fellowship, I've begged God's forgiveness once again and am back on track.  I am so thankful for encouraging women in my life who understand that we all fail but that are willing to encourage me and pray for me.  This has gone beyond an eating problem, this is a big fat spiritual battle!  I am learning to lean on my Father for comfort in my times of depression and bad days.  Okay, well I was just taking a small break from cleaning!  I need to get every thing finished for when miss Abigail wakes up so I can go to the store!

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Blessings today and always,